Day by day,night by night he recedes, and I become more faithless.
She is finally letting go of her past -- which is what kept her so complacent and able to survive. But it means she is moving on. She wants to keep him in her memory like she did with Luke, but she has moved on finally.
infinitely sad: faded music, fadedpaper flowers, worn satin, an echo of an echo. All gone away, no longerpossible. Without warning I began to cry.
She finally understands that the past is something gone and fictionalised, something she had been stuck in but has already disappeared - especially with the child picture, especially now she has Nick rather than fantasizing about Luke