Serena Joy grips my hands as if it is she, not I, who's being fucked, as ifshe finds it either pleasurable or painful
Emotional pain/pleasure. Shows the true connection between the body and the soul. Too often, Offred is fucked by the Commander and feels nothing, while Serena Joy is affected, instead, emotionally.
Therewere limits, but my body was nevertheless lithe, single, solid, one with me.
Dissociation of mind and body -- what does this mean?
It is through afield of such valid objects that I must pick my way, every day and in everyway. I put a lot of effort into making such distinctions I need to make them. Ineed to be very clear, in my own mind
And yet, these associations are true. But her sanity won't take it. It also connects to the separation of mind and body that happens. It becomes less a part of her.
These are the kinds of litanies I use, to compose myself
She periodically brings herself back from the past to regain and maintain her sanity, her composure, her intellect. She tries yet again to separate mind and body when she is treated only as a vessel.
It's as if he'ssomewhere else, waiting for himself to come, drumming his fingers on thetable while he waits. There's an impatience in his rhythm now.
Disassociation in the mind and body is both for the man and the woman. Both Offred and the commander.
The fact is you only create interpretations of reality. A better interpretation may be more pleasant temporarily, but you are still disassociated from yourself and life. It is this disassociation that must be bridged. Life is happening all around you, an incredible panorama. But you cannot experience it. Your Teachers are with you, helping you in amazing ways, but you do not know that they are there. There are genuine relationships waiting for you in life, waiting for you to be ready and desirous of them, but you must have the capability and the desire.