Even after I'd beendoing this for years, panic would set in. I'd try to write a lead, but instead I'd write acouple of dreadful sentences, XX them out, try again, XX everything out, and thenfeel despair and worry settle on my chest like an x-ray apron.
This is the common mistake everyone makes when writing their first drafts, they try to make it perfect almost like the first draft is the only chance they get to write.