You shouldn't be here, but it's okay. It's a dream. She can't find you here. In a minute you're going to wake up, and everything is going to seem like it's the same, but it's not. There's a way out. Are you listening to me? You can't forget when you wake up. You. can't
Reading this felt like a whisper, I actively heard Machado whisper to me as she is in a deep panic of her surroundings. In this scene, she is talking to herself while also trying to communicate with the reader. This passage makes me just as helpless as she does throughout her whole situation. The creativity that exudes out of Machado with these fragmented yet linear thoughts blew me away. Another example of how her trauma manifested itself in her writing and even in her dreams. The last line hit the hardest as she is trying not to forget like a scene in Memento, and yet she falls in the same cycle of waking up and hating every minute of her time with her partner. The little emblem of hope shimmers ever so slightly here as she actively says, "There's a way out" before waking up and letting her of these thoughts. Even as she is trying to speak, she is cut off from her thought process and reverts to her relationship pattern of pain and destruction.