22 Matching Annotations
  1. Feb 2022
    1. When you hurt under the surfaceLike troubled water running cold

      “When you hurt under the surface Like troubled water running cold” the visual imagery in “When you hurt under the surface” indicates how on the surface or facial expression, his friend hid his feelings and thoughts of despair from everyone, the diction of the moderate word intensity “hurt” tells me that the friend was secretly in pain and suffering, can’t feel peace. The use of comparison between warm and cold tells me that the friend couldn’t feel the warmth of comfort from his friends and felt cold and bitter about them, also cold water is chilling and unpleasant to the touch. The use of the simile in “Like” compares the speaker’s friend’s unhappiness to choppy water that threatens to drown him, and the friend felt overwhelmed and his life was shaky and unstable. This makes me reflect on the theme of guilt, how the speaker is feeling guilty as he did not notice the signs of despair that his friend hid from him, and now it is too late to do anything about it, and hence I pity the speaker.

    2. I fell by the wayside, like everyone else

      “Fell by the wayside”: Visual imagery of someone getting left behind by his friend or companion who is close to him (Foreshadowing the fact that his friend took his/her life by suicide), “Like everyone else” diction of this tells me that the other people in his friend’s life were also brushed aside by their friend. Tone of regret, as if speaker was regretting the fact that he let himself lag behind what his friend was going through, didn’t keep up to date with his friend. This makes me reflect on the theme of regretfulness, how the speaker is feeling regretful that he did not keep up in touch with his friend.

    3. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you

      “I hate you, I hate you, I hate you” Repetition of words of strong intensity “hate” reflecting the emotional turmoil the speaker feels after his friend moved on, and emphasises the negative emotions the speaker feels at his friend. It also tells me that the speaker sort of hates his friend for placing him in a situation like this, and is angry at his friend for taking his own life. This reflects on the theme of emotional turmoil, how the speaker is feeling many different emotions when the friend passed on, and does not know what to feel.

    4. Our every moment, I start to replaceCause now that they're goneAll I hear are the words that I needed to say

      “Our every moment, I started to replace, ‘Cause now that they’re gone All I hear are the words I needed to say” trying to remember the memories of their time spent together, but can’t remember as what is filling his mind is questions, words that he feels should he should have spoken but didn’t and now he needs to get it all out, emphasising his regret. This makes me reflect on the theme of regret, how the speaker is regretting not helping his friend, and now is trying to make peace with the fact that their friend is gone and has no choice but to replace their memories, and thus I feel pity for the speaker.

    5. So, before you go

      “So, before you go” Diction of “so” injects a tone of affinity to make sense and understand the situation that the speaker is caught in. Words “before you go” tells me that the speaker is feeling desperate to show that he still cares for his friend, which indicates the amount of guilt that he feels for not doing more for his friend. Also, repetition of “So, before you go” signifies the desperation the speaker feels to try to find some answers for the questions he has regarding his friend leaving.

    6. Well, time can heal, but this won't

      “Well, time can heal, but this won’t” This implies that the speaker is himself feeling pain as time will not be able to bring back his friend and heal the scar of losing a friend. Also, it implies that the friend’s passing will continuously haunt the speaker, such that he cannot forget the loss of the friend through time alone. This makes me reflect on the theme of pain, how the friend’s pain is passed on to the speaker, such that the wound the speaker suffers from cannot be healed naturally over time, and hence I pity the speaker.

    7. Was there something I could've saidTo make your heart beat better?

      “Was there something I could have said to make your heart beat better?” This is but one of the speaker’s unanswered questions on what he could have done for his friend to perhaps save his life. “Heart” symbolises life and emotions, and the fact the the speaker wanted his friend to “beat better” tells me that the speaker is questioning himself if he could have done something to ease his suffering and convince his friend to feel better and have a more positive outlook on life.

    8. But I was just kidding myself

      “But I was just kidding myself” Diction of “But” highlights change in tone of the poem, emphasising the turmoil the speaker is feeling as his feelings change from regret to anger, to now confusion. Showing the speaker is emotionally torn by the departure of his friend and how he is unable to deal with the issue, or is trying to deal with it. This makes me reflect on the theme of being lost, how the speaker is trying to make sense of the whole situation, and of the fact that his friend is no longer here with him.

    9. It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless

      “It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless” The use of phrase, “your mind can make you feel so worthless” tells me that the speaker is shocked and pained that his friend could feel so lowly and hopeless. The speaker is also feeling confused that his friend had taken his own life due to the fact that he thought that he was useless. This makes me reflect on the theme of confusion, how the speaker is suffering as he tries to sense of the whole situation, that his friend took his own life and thus I feel pity for the speaker.

    10. Would we be better off by nowIf I'd let my walls come down?

      “Would we have been better off by now If I’d let my walls come down” Visual imagery of the speaker not willing to be too emotionally connected with his friend as he is afraid of being vulnerable to his friend, admits that he didn’t take his friend’s calls for help as he didn’t want to be too emotionally involved with his friend. This makes me reflect on the theme of guilt, how the speaker is feeling guilty as he did not want to help his friend out of selfishness, and is paying the price for it.

    11. If only I'd have known you had a storm to weather

      “If only I’d had known you had a storm to weather” the use of visual imagery in “Storm to weather” compares the feelings that the friend had to bear alone to a storm. It also emphasises the guilt of the speaker about how he could have missed what the friend was feeling, since a storm is rather large. This makes me reflect on the theme of guilt, how some people are feeling guilty that they did not help their friend, and are upset and wonder why they didn’t notice the trouble their friend is going through.

    12. Went little, by little, by little until there was nothing at all

      “Went little, by little, by little until there was nothing at all” The use of repetition of the word “little” emphasises his recourse at not helping his friend even as the chances to help him dwindled as the friend became worse and stopped calling him. Recalling all the missed opportunities to help him, emphasises his guilt for not helping his friend. This makes me reflect on the theme of regretfulness, how the speaker regrets not helping his friend despite the friend giving him many chances to help the friend, and hence I pity the speaker.

    13. Maybe I guess we'll never knowYou know, you know

      “Maybe I guess we’ll never know”, “You know, you know” The use of the phrase “Maybe I guess” gives the speaker a tone of self-reproach, sensing that now he will never see his friend again and never get the answers he wants to the questions he has. The use of the phrase, “You know, you know” gives the speaker a wistful tone, as if he wants to connect with his friend casually once more, and talk to his friend, as if nothing happened. This makes me reflect on the theme of confusion, how some people struggle with the emotional mess caused by the death of a loved one and cannot accept their loss, therefore trying to talk to the loved one, and thus I feel sad and pity for the speaker.

    14. Our every moment, I start to replay

      “Our every moment, I started to replay.” The use of visual imagery tells me that the speaker is recalling all the memories that he has of his friend, and replaying them in his head, as he is no longer able to make new memories with his friend. Also, the use of the phrase, “our every” tells me that the speaker is also recalling the times when he was given the chance to help his friend but didn’t, and hence feels guilty. This makes me reflect on the theme of guilt, how some people feel guilty for their actions and keep recalling them, and hence I feel pity for the speaker as he is unable to bring himself to forgive himself, and thus I feel pity for the speaker.

    15. But all I can think about is seeing that look on your face

      “But all I can think about is seeing that look on your face.” The imagery in this tells me that the speaker is very guilt-ridden, and all he can think about is seeing “that look” of his friend feeling sad as he was not there to help his friend when he needed it the most. The use of the word “that” tells me that he still remembers that look and seems haunted by it. This makes me reflect on the theme of guilt, how a person seems haunted by the memories of a loved one that moved on, and hence I feel pity for the speaker.

    16. Was there something I could've saidTo make it all stop hurting?

      “Was there something I could have said to make it all stop hurting.” The use of the phrase “make it all stop hurting has a rather gentle tone, as if the speaker is trying to console and comfort his friend in the way you do so to a child. This implies that the speaker has finally realised that the friend was actually vulnerable and tries to comfort him even though it was too late. This makes me reflect on the theme of guilt, how the speaker is feeling guilty as he is unable to comfort his friend when he needed comfort the most, and thus I feel pity for the speaker.

    17. Was never the right time, whenever you called

      “Was never the right time, whenever you called” The speaker is replaying his memories and feels guilty that even though the speaker had many chances to help his friend who “called” him, address his friend’s call for help, to the speaker it was not important to him as it “was never the right time”, and the speaker was unwilling to spare the time for his friend” This reflects the theme of guilt, how the speaker feels guilty that even though his friend tried to speak out and ask the speaker for help, the speaker didn’t “have time” for his friend.

  2. Jan 2022
    1. —Even losing you (the joking voice, a gestureI love) I shan’t have lied.

      The use of word intensity in, "losing you" tells me that the speaker had lost a person who was close to her, making her seem more pitiful. Also, the use of the words, "a gesture I love" gives the speaker a wistful and nostalgic tone, as if she was reminiscing about the past. This makes me feel sad for the speaker, as she had lost someone that was precious to her, and now that she lost that someone she can only reminiscing about him. This makes me reflect on the theme of memories, how some people have lost things and as a result can only go back to their memories, and thus I feel sad for the speaker

    2. Then practice losing farther, losing faster:

      The repetition of the word, "losing" emphases that the speaker has lost many things, till the point where the things she lost has become meaningless to her. The use of the words "further" and "faster" tells me that as time went on, the author lost more faster, showing the accumulation of things she lost. I feel sad for the speaker as overtime, she became 'better' at "losing" and hence lost more. This makes me reflect on the theme of lost, how overtime people start to lose more things at a faster rate, hence this makes me feel pity for the speaker

    3. places, and names, and where it was you meantto travel. None of these will bring disaster.

      The Low word intensity of the things the speaker loses tells me that the speaker doesn’t care about what she loses, and is in denial about losing them in “None of these will bring disaster” as she reasons that the lost things will not cause much harm. The use of the absolute word, “None” tells me that she believes that losing the small things will not cause a “disaster”. This is building up to when she will lose more things, and that it still doesn’t cause disaster. I feel angry as the speaker refuses to believe that anything she forgets will not cause harm and continues to forget them. This makes me reflect on the theme of denial, how some people stubbornly believe they are right, and that what they are doing is correct, hence this makes me feel angry at them

    4. I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.

      The increasing word intensity of the phrases, from a medium word intensity of “two cities, lovely ones” increased to a higher word intensity, “a continent” connotes that the speaker has slowly but surely lost more things that are more precious. Also, the fact that the speaker refers to the two cities as “lovely ones” while refers to the continent, as “a continent” without elaboration highlights that the speaker has lost too many things that she starts to list them off mindlessly, as if she feels no emotional connection to the continent. I feel pity for the speaker as she has lost so many things that she doesn’t bother building up an emotional connection to the new places, such that when she loses them she will not feel pain. This makes me reflect on the theme of lost, how some people do not build any more connections to their items, thus making me feel pity for them

    5. The art of losing isn’t hard to master;

      The use of the oxymoron where the speaker compares “losing” to an “art” that can be “mastered”, which is ironic as loss, by definition, is a painful state of grieving for something one no longer has. The use of the word, “master” is of high word intensity, as mastering something means that you are an expert at it. This connotes that the speaker has lost many things till the point where they consider themselves to have mastered “losing”. I feel sorry for the speaker as they have lost too many things till the point where they consider themselves to be masters of losing. This makes me reflect on the theme of mastery, how you need lots of practice to master an art, and that the fact that the speaker compares losing to an “art that can be “mastered” emphasise their pain at losing too many things.