And there are so many silences to be broken.
So empowering
And there are so many silences to be broken.
So empowering
the decision to define ourselves, name ourselves, and speak for ourselves, in~ stead of being defined and spoken for by others
Power. Adam Foss.
Black women have on one hand always been highly visible, and so, on the other hand, have been rendered invisible through the depersonalization of racism.
Very interesting way to think about it. I've never thought about it this way
Iam not only a casualty, I am also a warrior.
I just love this quote
pain will either change or end .
This is so important; so many people just expect change to end when in actuality, a shift in the pain is much more common
transformation of silence into language and action.
This transformation is so important to every activist.
risk of having it bruised or misunderstood.
Such an important and mature thought.
I like grit, wherever I see it.
sexualizing her
A thousand lives seemed to be concentrated in that one moment to Eliza.
she is like a representative of thousands of slaves
Mrs. Shelby’s dread of his succeeding in recapturing Eliza and her child, and of course the greater her motive for detaining him by every female artifice.
she genuinely wants Eliza and Harry to be kept safe, which she equates with the fact that they connected over being females; they're one in the same
“I say, Sol,” said the woman, “is that ar man going to tote them bar’ls over tonight?”
another white savior
As she was also so white as not to be known as of colored lineage, without a critical survey, and her child was white also, it was much easier for her to pass on unsuspected.
yay! so glad it's harder for her to be seen as a runaway
“No, no, Harry darling! mother can’t eat till you are safe! We must go on—on—till we come to the river!”
she's pushing herself to run away as far as possible so harry isn't taken from her
to be torn from you by a brutal trader, tomorrow morning,—if you had seen the man, and heard that the papers were signed and delivered, and you had only from twelve o’clock till morning to make good your escape,—how fast could you walk?
Sold Harry.
Her husband’s suffering and dangers, and the danger of her child, all blended in her mind, with a confused and stunning sense of the risk she was running, in leaving the only home she had ever known, and cutting loose from the protection of a friend whom she loved and revered.
she's trying everything she can to do what's best for her family. i hope everybody is still okay at this point
and the husband and wife were parted.
i believe in their love way more than madison's love to his wife
“I won’t be taken, Eliza; I’ll die first! I’ll be free, or I’ll die!”
i just really want this to happen, i'm so sucked in to their family, but i get bad vibes that it won't work out
Mas’r will find out that I’m one that whipping won’t tame. My day will come yet, if he don’t look out.”
he is so honest as a character
“I always thought that I must obey my master and mistress, or I couldn’t be a Christian.”
heartbreaking. religion and submission is one in the same for eliza, and that's true for so many other characters in this
My master! and who made him my master? That’s what I think of—what right has he to me? I’m a man as much as he is. I’m a better man than he is.
QUESTIONING SOCIETY AND RACISM. YOU GO, GEORGE.
“Yes, Eliza, it’s all misery, misery, misery! My life is bitter as wormwood; the very life is burning out of me. I’m a poor, miserable, forlorn drudge; I shall only drag you down with me, that’s all. What’s the use of our trying to do anything, trying to know anything, trying to be anything? What’s the use of living? I wish I was dead!”
horrible. at least there's a character that tells it like it is now
No; there is another use that a man can be put to that is WORSE!
there are so many worse things than death, and especially death from hanging. it's arguably one of the fastest ways to die, and therefore there are many other things that are so much worse
“see if he’d step about so smart.
???? relax ???? he's literally just being good at his job ????
uneasy consciousness of inferiority
master felt inferior to his slave because of how he held himself.
Eliza had reached maturity without those temptations which make beauty so fatal an inheritance to a slave
implying sexual relations in that her potential master would take advantage of/rape her as a slave because she is "mature."
as a petted and indulged favorite
was brought up as a pet.
breaking to his wife the arrangement contemplate
the arrangement was already made even though he said he would speak to his wife about it.
I would as soon have one of my own children sold.
she's so capable of understanding that slavery is wrong, but just chooses to not see it
poor creature
degrading way to describe Eliza. equating her to an pitiful animal
‘Is thy servant a dog, that he should do this thing?
equating them to dogs
Mr. Shelby, with a slight shrug, and some perceptible feelings of a disagreeable nature
mr. shelby in this story is the "white savior," the one that's doing good for the black people, when in actuality, he's no better than anybody else who owns slaves.
Clear waste, sir, of a thousand dollars,
these people are literally being ripped away from families, but all he has to think about is the loss of $1000
then the thing’s done quietly,—all over before she comes home. Your wife might get her some ear-rings, or a new gown, or some such truck, to make up with her.”
continually trying to get her as his property, even though mr. shelby said no many times. still using his wife as an excuse and stating that she won't really notice if they do it quietly because she'll be thinking about all the new shiny things she has
I’m a humane man, and I hate to take the boy from his mother, sir.”
"white savior"
Just show ‘em how many watches, feathers, and trinkets, one’s weight in gold would buy, and that alters the case, I reckon.”
because showing her material items will obviously change her mind.
“I don’t want to make my fortune on her,” said Mr. Shelby
protective? or just wants her around? does he have a soft spot for her?
her finely moulded shape
this woman is very highly sexualized
fling in that chap, and I’ll settle the business
objectifying
Jim
are we just using this term for all black people now?
one of those wild, grotesque songs common among the negroes,
black people are (again) depicted as animals
laughed.
maniacal?
hung in glossy curls about his round, dimpled face, while a pair of large dark eyes, full of fire and softness, looked out from beneath the rich, long lashes, as he peered curiously into the apartment.
has to be aesthetically pleasing for us to care about him
but I do. I had a fellow, now, in this yer last lot I took to Orleans—‘t was as good as a meetin, now, really, to hear that critter pray; and he was quite gentle and quiet like. He fetched me a good sum, too, for I bought him cheap of a man that was ‘bliged to sell out; so I realized six hundred on him. Yes, I consider religion a valeyable thing in a nigger, when it’s the genuine article, and no mistake.”
white savior
He was a short, thick-set man, with coarse, commonplace features, and that swaggering air of pretension which marks a low man who is trying to elbow his way upward in the world
looks of the man that is perceived as gentlemanly
There were no servants present
having servants present is obviously a common occurrence so it's worth noting that there aren't any there
I have to thank those negroes you see, who, though to your inexperienced eyes appearing unruly, have, indeed, conducted themselves with less of restlessness than even their owner could have thought possible under such circumstances.”
Don Benito thanks the black people
my poor, poor master!
feels sad for his master
transforming the man into a block, or rather into a loaded cannon, which, until there is call for thunder, has nothing to say.
he's taking away their individualism; making them just a weapon
His cough
keeps coughing.
Thus, the Spaniard, regarded in his reserve, seemed the involuntary victim of mental disorder
Interesting that they speak of a mental disorder
less a servant than a devoted companion
Is a companion; not a servant
Spanish captain,
Spanish
like so many
Not individual
The ship seems unreal; these strange costumes, gestures, and faces, but a shadowy tableau just emerged from the deep,
A sense of wonder and surreal
strange inmates in a strange land
Judgmental
Castile and Leon, medallioned about by groups of mythological or symbolical devices; uppermost and central of which was a dark satyr in a mask, holding his foot on the prostrate neck of a writhing figure, likewise masked.
Imagery
Italian palaces
Spanish / Italian / Acapulco
several baskets of the fish
Giving a present to the stranger
saya-y-manta
Not English language
Chili.
watch her
This is his thing. To watch people
It is good for me that I have been afflicted
I'm glad she learned something from her "afflictions" there
Having now received one of our children,
Because she's discussing this in the past tense, it feels like her child is back so quickly, but in actuality, probably was much longer
one being dead, and the other we could not tell where, abated our comfort each to other
She's finally allowing herself to feel the emotions and loss of her children
and in coming along my heart melted into tears, more than all the while I was with them, and I was almost swallowed up with the thoughts that ever I should go home again
Is she sad to leave?
except my husband would come for me, but afterwards they assented to it, and seemed much to rejoice in it; some asked me to send them some bread, others some tobacco, others shaking me by the hand, offering me a hood and scarfe to ride in; not one moving hand or tongue against it
Seems like a huge change of pace in a very short amount of time of their reaction to her leaving
destroyed such a captain and his company at such a place
Don't we do that too, as a society?
(with their black faces)
Why is this important to mention that they have black faces?
the English must stop
She doesn't want them to try to cross because she knows the hardships. Seems as if she's denouncing the war somehow.
Shall there be evil in the City and the Lord hath not done it? They are not grieved for the affliction of Joseph, therefore shall they go captive, with the first that go captive. It is the Lord’s doing, and it should be marvelous in our eyes.
She's beginning to question her own people by the act of God and how God has not helped her people. Her questions are proving that she's acclimating to a culture without Englishmen and taking a step back to notice the world as a whole, rather than just her people and their fight.
I told them, they had as good knock me in head as starve me to death.
How are they having conversations together? I thought she couldn't speak her language. She is beginning to become less patient with their actions and threats, however, and is speaking back to them.
“The things that my soul refused to touch are as my sorrowful mea
Justifying her actions with the Bible again
Then I took it of the child, and eat it myself, and savory it was to my taste
She knows suffering so well at this point, and is willing and okay with taking away another person's food who is going through the same thing as her? And this is a child, this child probably needs the nutrients and sustainability more than she does. I understand hunger, but will never understand the lack of being a humanitarian that came into play here.
one of them my own sister’s
I hope this is somehow a support system to have seen her niece. She seems very detached from the situation though, and like there's not much that could make her happy right now
So like were these barbarous creatures to him who was a liar from the beginning.
Does that mean they're lying about her son too? Why would they lie? Is it just amusing for them to watch her spiral in and out of control, or does it mean they're slowly accepting her and this is their way of joking around with her?
Thomas Read
They captured another English person; maybe some hope
but I found no comfort here neither
She can't find comfort in God. Is she falling away from her scriptures and faith, or is this common?
and being taken by them
This seems unlikely. Be your own warrior!
she threw a handful of ashes in mine eyes.
What? Is this an act of retaliation, or just for fun?
seen my son a pretty while, and here was an Indian of whom I made inquiry after him, and asked him when he saw him. He answered me that such a time his master roasted him, and that himself did eat a piece of him, as big as his two fingers, and that he was very good meat
I can't tell if the Indian is lying or telling the truth. Haven't they lied to her before? What's to say that her son is alive somewhere? Maybe they're just trying to get arise out of her? It seems odd to tell her that her son was good meat, and I feel like they're telling falsified stories to her.
that it would be no matter if my head were off too.
They were so kind previously, why are they saying this now?
I found six acorns, and two chestnuts, which were some refreshment to me
She's finding her own sustainability
As soon as I had the opportunity, I took my Bible to read, and that quieting Scripture came to my hand, “Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46.10). Which stilled my spirit for the present.
This allows her to be able to have patience and calmness in moments of real frustration. I understand her frustration here; she went through feeling like she couldn't trek but nobody acknowledged her pain, and her mistress seems to be harsher with her of the late
I complained it was too heavy, whereupon she gave me a slap in the face, and bade me go
They seem to be treating her differently and with less patience than in the previous removes.
she found me sitting and reading in my Bible; she snatched it hastily out of my hand, and threw it out of doors
Didn't this same person give her the Bible?
He answered me “Nux,
How does she know that "Nux" mean something positive? Also, didn't they kill her husband?
I desired them that they would carry me to Albany upon one of those horses, and sell me for powder: for so they had sometimes discoursed. I was utterly hopeless of getting home on foot, the way that I came. I could hardly bear to think of the many weary steps I had taken, to come to this place
She's needed and desired by the Indians, and yet she doesn't want to spend another moment with them, but allows them to buy her back so she doesn't have to walk?
When I was in the canoe I could not but be amazed at the numerous crew of pagans that were on the bank on the other side
Religion seems to be very influential for this person writing, and I wonder what would have happened if she didn't have religion to believe in.
Joseph unexpectedly came to me
She has ANOTHER son?
turned my hand against their adversaries
Violent
filthy trash
Isn't any food good food?
“Wait on the Lord, Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine Heart, wait I say on the Lord.”
Clearly this is an important time and line to the author.
my son came to me
What? She has a son? Why has she not talked about him?
Then they went and showed me where it was, where I saw the ground was newly digged, and there they told me they had buried it. There I left that child in the wilderness,
Who is her master and why is she not accepting of the Indians' kindness of caring for her baby?
I then remembered how careless I had been of God’s holy time; how many Sabbaths I had lost and misspent, and how evilly I had walked in God’s sight;
Feels regretful of how s/he has interacted and shown him/herself during this ordeal to God.
It being about six years, and five months old. It was nine days from the first wounding, in this miserable condition, without any refreshing of one nature or other, except a little cold water.
Her child was 6 years old? I thought it was actually a baby. That was unclear throughout the whole story beforehand
“your master will knock your child in the head,” and then a second, and then a third,
Is the Indian telling the speaker that the speaker's master will come to kill the babe?
having no Christian friend near me
Has to be Christian to touch child.
few boughs behind me, with my sick child in my lap; and calling much for water, being now (through the wound) fallen into a violent fever.
Are these people being taken as hostages? What is happening in this part of the story and why does it seem like they are succumbing to the Indians?
at which they, like inhumane creatures, laughed,
I feel like they were just laughing in regards to what happened, not necessarily in the negative way that the author is painting it to be? But regardless, the Indians keep being referred to as creatures.
Then they set me upon a horse with my wounded child in my lap,
The Indians were helping the speaker/author and his/her child, even though the speaker is not giving them respect or whatnot.
God was with me in a wonderful manner, carrying me along, and bearing up my spirit, that it did not quite fail
God is a really big importance to many people when discussing colonialism. I think it's interesting that it isn't just speaking about God, it's speaking about how God is allowing him to go through this experience, and that he has this unrelenting trust in God and everything He is doing for this experience and trip with the Indians.
black creatures
Inhumane way of describing the Indians
Now away we must go with those barbarous creatures, with our bodies wounded and bleeding, and our hearts no less than our bodies
Author describes characters in a disjointed, gothic way
his own language
What is his language?
Have my golden image in the House of the Sun
He seems full of himself / not humble at all
Care for them and they shall serve you.
Is he talking to all of his sons or just one?
plough furrows in token
what does this mean / why are they eating by the sweat of their hands?
I leave you these our relations that they may be your councillors.
Is he leaving his children with his kingdom as the leader, or is he leaving his kingdom behind as he dies without a leader?
one hundred and three years
I wonder if this poem holds fantastical elements because nobody would scientifically live longer than the age of ~40 years old.
orejones
what does this mean? i looked it up and couldn't find it
then in the city
where were those that weren't in the city?