In this sense, The doctor's assistant is ridding herself of negative energy when not necessarily exposed to this. By telling her mind that she sees enough doom in the world she will make herself not want to be like that or feed in to that kind of energy. In my opinion, this actually does work. Not having social media has helped me tremendously over the past 2-3 years its ridiculous !

Andres Serrano is known for his precise photography and his series "The Morgue" He is a major influence in shocking art, as he depicts images of real people that died but hides their faces that way we focus on the textures and overall details that tell a story.

This is another example that different meanings can draw from the depiction of something.

This shows two complete opposite depictions of beauty as the Apollo Belvedere is a Roman statue depicting a man that shows elegance and structure. Bosch's Garden of Earthly Delights, depicts many naked disfigured humans that all have the exact same face but show almost sadistic images. This can be seen as weirdly beautiful and shows how we really cannot limit the word "Beauty"

This was a common belief that If you are humble no one can cast bad energy on you, in modern terms this means If you do nothing they say nothing.

This refers to migrating to the Texas bigger cities, away from the valley.

This opening paints a vivid picture of a child looking confused at something.

This Part talks about the systematic issues that Mexican-Immigrants face when coming to America. As with everything, it always sounds good at first but what ends up happening is things change so much that life isn't the same and everyone deals with it different ways. The struggle may lead you to the streets, with resentment towards the country, yourself or the world. and you may want things to go back the way they were..

The author is acknowledging that his true home is La Loma trail In Austin.

There is two bars with this name, one in East Austin. One in Phoenix AZ. Both places close to the border.

A Bar in San, Antonio TX

Latin slang for "Weed"

Salt is used in holy water, and In catholic culture, making the sign of the cross is a sign of blessing yourself.

The story of the Weeping lady who is suffering eternally and from drowning her own children.

This is a Neighborhood Park. "Parque Zaragoza Park | Austin, TX"

Buena Vista is a city in Colorado and Sanita Rita Courts is a public housing community in Austin. I assume this is where the author is talking about.

Unobtainable means that he knows this is something he is not able to have. I find this interesting when speaking about relationships because I feel like that is a common way of thinking. I like how this is relatable to a lot of peoples feelings that someone is "too good for them".

Mestizo is a term used for racial classification to refer to a person of mixed European and Indigenous American ancestry.

It seems the author means as a "bridge" he means a connection to the voices or "spirits" were once consuming him but now wants to listen to them and implement that in real life being the bridge this way.

Here the author implies that there were times that he felt she was emotionless or "heartless" for lack of a better word. He states that he may be tasting all the tears she never released that are built up under her skin like relentless oceans. The other alternative could be that she has been though a lot and he has seen her be very strong. He may be encouraging her to let it out because she is not a communicative person. The author gives a lot to speculate with this one sentence.

The author does a great job of using imagery in this sentence, by showing you how much pain the whispering and voices cause him to feel.

The author uses foreshadowing a bit here where he states "you'd said it'd be your hobby room and double as a guest bedroom," implying that it was not used for that purpose. The next few sentences he goes further into depth.

Chachalacas are galliform birds from the genus Ortalis. These birds are found in wooded habitats in the far southern United States (Texas),[1][2] Mexico, and Central and South America. They are social, can be very noisy and often remain fairly common even near humans, as their relatively small size makes them less desirable to hunters than their larger relatives.

a black-and-white bird of the crow family, known for its habit of collecting shiny objects

The author speaks about his experience in college, and when he says whispers, I begin to think he means criticism or insecurities. He says outrun them like he was running from people saying things about his weight, then goes to university to fit in because he already has faked an image as a "Track athlete".

The author uses short sentences to emphasize the point he is trying to get to the person he is speaking to.