An archive is a trash can for the indecisive.

This internal monologue goes to show the power of inertia and the subsequent cognitive dissonance that it entails. Might I suggest that both of the sides of the coin are wrong? On one hand, she wants to stay into her safe zone and go on to live for her father and brother, on the other hand she thinks of going away with her other half. Notice how both of these realities have her essentially being dependent, or placing her wellbeing, on other people. A third option would be to make a change from within as a first step.